wild hearts

today i'm listening to: helplessness blues - fleet foxes

they blow me away...

i was raised up believing

i was somehow unique

like a snowflake distinct among snowflakes

unique in each way you can see

and now after some thinking

i'd say i'd rather be

a functioning cog in some great machinery

serving something beyond me

but i don't, i don't know what that will be

i'll get back to you someday soon you will see

oh hey new york, i've made it.

for a while there i felt like i was on a

really long vacation

it's always like that when i move...

when does it start to feel solid?

then again... does new york ever feel solid?

best part?

i don't care. i like that i can be a

stranger in new york

but... it's creeping up on me that i may not be that much of an outsider...

and THAT, is secretly awesome.

i used to think that when you grew up,

you actually stopped growing.

how wrong was i

- katie couric

i'm not interested in preserving the status quo;

i want to overthrow it - machiavelli

i'm feeling quite human today -

therefore, i'm a bit impatient and slightly moody....

we'll all float on anyway...

i don't dream at night, i dream all day; i dream for a living. - steven spielberg

"when i was 5 years old,

my mother always told me that happiness

was the key to life.

when i went to school,

they asked me what i wanted to be

when i grew up. i wrote down "happy."

they told me i didn't understand the assignment,

and i told them they didn't understand life."

- john lennon

i had a genuine freakout moment yesterday

(when i first typed "genuine" just then... i started with a 'j')

--i may be going crazy--

does that make me more of a new yorker?

or more of an artist?

....or a bigger artist-in-ny cliche?

blame it on my wild heart

marilyn liked to fly too

i got an unexpected message from someone tonight

which prompted me to send someone else a message

(but that is neither here nor there)

anyway - some people may think it was creepy

i think it was ballsy. and brave.

and i respect him for it.

and out of the whole conversation...

and i hope i'm the me that he thinks me to be

until then, i'm walking fast, talking fast, and folding my pizza

keep the change you filthy animal

xoxo. -jess