fuzzy & reeling

today i am listening to: meryn cadell - the sweater

"this is the sweater belonging to a boy

and the boy is a genuine

hunka-hunk-of-burning-love"

‎

..just be yourself

the best,

cutest,

quietest version of yourself.

...definitely wear lipgloss.

i'll take my unusual, please.

give me that ghost-town-feeling between saturday night and sunday morning

or the countdown to blast off....

jetset

jet pack

jettison

...jetsons

keep in mind that the nearest exit may be behind you...

i need

a seen, a smelled, a felt

sharpen my knife

shake a can

an aerial sort of view

something has changed the angles of our shadows

what colors.

questions with no sign of touching down

calming a hunch. and being.

summer showers

and bathers

and players

and play-as

or playas

"Learn the craft of knowing how to open your heart and to turn on your creativity. There’s a light inside of you." ~Judith Jamison

she's just a dream machine

we should be sent... on a tailspin.

we should be sent... spinning

a fuzzy and a reeling

.......i'd probably save money on the a-a-a-a-a-alchohol.

‎"Tomorrow is the most important thing. It comes in to us at midnight very clean. It's perfect when it arrives and it puts itself in our hands. It hopes we've learned something from yesterday" -john wayne

until then,i'll be finding life experiences and swallowing them whole.

xoxo. -jess

make it sing

today i am listening to: warpaint - undertow

"your brown eyes are my blue skies"

hey there, cupcake.

thought i'd shift a blog into the abyss

just because i wanna...

and because infinity doesn't keep track

of all the things you do

(only you do, so lighten up)

life is constantly changing and developing.

this hurtling train/nose-diving plane/speeding car

i've been riding for the past six months

DOESN'T SEEM TO BE SLOWING DOWN.

(occupational and/or health hazard, i presume.)

so

instead of waiting for the calm,

i've decided to regroup, reevaluate

and TRY TO MAKE TIME FOR MYSELF.

i guess

i thought the process of becoming an adult would take

a few years

but maybe life's not about becoming an adult.

perhaps we should all focus less

on WHAT or WHO we're becoming

and instead, just focus on the becoming

(limitless)

and make it beautiful.

fuck it,

MAKE IT SING.

so little of what could happen, does happen.

-dali

sometimes it's important to remember what a tiny speck you are.

sepia-toned loving

i can't seem to shake my mind of something.

i'm completely consumed.

so how do i change my mind about it?

how do i believe in my own [lies]?

power of persuasion?

not so good.

(it's impossible. with a side of unbearable.)

impossibly unbearable, perhaps?

"it was a dream," said john quietly. "Everybody's youth is a dream,

a form of chemical madness."

"how pleasant then to be insane!"

-f. scott fitzgerald. "the diamond as big as the ritz"

i'm off to shimmy, shake, and glow around the edges.

there is something

in every one of you

that waits and listens

for the sound of the genuine in yourself

it is the only true guide you will ever have

and if you cannot hear it,

you will

all your life

spend your days on the ends of strings

that somebody else pulls.

-howard thurman

xoxo. -jess

rebel song

today i'm listening to: tame impala - half full glass of wine

you leave me no choice but to plot my revenge...

"the sun may rise in the east but at least it settles in a finer location"-RedHotChiliPeppers

i turn the music up

i got my records on

from underneath the rubble

sing a rebel song

don't want to see another

generation drop

i'd rather be a comma

than a full stop

-coldplay, every teardrop is a waterfall

"the greatest danger for most of us

is not that our aim is too high and we miss it,

but that it is too low and we reach it." - michelangelo

among other things,

you'll find that you're not the

first person who was ever

confused and frightened

and even sickened by human behavior.

you're by no means alone on that score,

you'll be excited and stimulated to know.

many, many men have been just as troubled

morally and spiritually

as you are right now.

happily, some of them kept records

of their troubles.

you'll learn from them-

if you want to.

just as someday,

if you have something to offer,

someone will learn something from you.

it's a

beautiful

reciprocal

arrangement.

and it isn't education.

it's history. it's poetry.

-J.D. Salinger, Catcher in the Rye

i dont' think you're ready for this jelly

"I feel too much. that's what's going on."

"do you think one can feel too much? or just feel in the wrong ways?

"my insides don't match up with my outsides."

"do anyone's insides and outsides match up?"

"i dont' know. i'm only me."

"maybe that's what a person's personality is: the difference between the inside and outside."

"but it's worse for me."

"i wonder if everyone things it's worse for him."

"probably. but it really is worse for me."

-jonathan safran foer - extremely loud and incredibly close

i seek help from my friend called the radio

"life i love you, all is groovy" - paul simon

"she generally gave herself very good advice,(though she very seldom followed it)."

- lewis carroll - alice's adventures in wonderland

xoxo. - jess