clouds in my coffee

today i'm aptly listening to: new york i love you, but you're bringing me down by LCD Soundsystem

okay, okay, ... i'm just being bitter.

but, on the bright side,

is there anything better than kermit?

so here i am blogging from NYC.

one might think i've done the impossible and have finally moved!

well, you'd be wrong.

because duh,

it's impossible.

amen.

my craig's list experience has turned from

good-hearted entertainment...

and into a verifiable freak show.

step right up! step right up!

first we see....

THE MAN WITHOUT A (visible) BODY!

there's a few theories to this creature, the extreme trash-hoarder. either he doesn't clean and wants you to see the apartment as is, because let's face it, you'd be living with him anyway. OR... he actually spiffed up the place a bit for your visit... yikes

next we come across....

THE WOMAN WITH TWO FACES!

on the internet she's a real charmer, in person she's a bit of a raging psycho. don't cross this one... it's best to stay a click or two away away

one of my [least] favorites...

THE MAN WHO'D RATHER DATE YOU THAN LEASE THE SPARE ROOM!

by denying me a room and therefore a life, i'm afraid we're just not going to work out. i may be desperate... but not that desperate

i'm sure i've got enough freak going on myself

so bring on the funhouse!

"there is no good or bad, but thinking makes it so" - hamlet

what is unlucky

is not to change

-rumi

"that's one thing earthlings might learn to do,

if they tried hard enough:

ignore the awful times

and concentrate on the

good ones."

- kurt vonnegut

xoxo. - jessica

location location location

today I'm listening to: lera lynn - wolf like me (cover, TV On The Radio)

"my mind's aflame"

the sun is shining, on the nothing new.

my nothing new, specifically..

but that's alright, because the there's sun to share

... and i need a tan.

true love is not something you find often.

so let's talk about lust baby, let's talk about you and me....

because i'd say, i fall in lust about a couple times a week..

he fits a full-size bed,

he may have a closet and windows, if i'm really lucky.

but everyone knows it's all location location location.

but the real kicker?

even the roommates don't sound like machete wielding crazies!

yes, this is my recent relationship with craigslist.

(on facebook... "it's complicated")

because trying to find the perfect apartment is tough enough

finding it on craigslist is pure masochism.

and even if you're lucky enough to find the apartment of your dreams,

you have to fight to the death to make it yours.

and in this case... i may have died a couple times..

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so all you new yorkers out there,

specifically Chelsea-ans or Upper West Siders,

please, let me live with you.

i am the Best Roommate Ever (<-- yeah, you want to click that)

are you there perfect apartment?

it's me, jessica.

sometimes i have to remind myself

that it is only part of a much larger picture.

the world (rather, massive chunks of my world)

is (are) moving onto much bigger and better things.

are we there yet?!

too haute to handle.

i have a lot of likes (and dislikes) lately.

not the fbook kind... the real-life, opinionated kind.

i think this means i'm knowing myself better.

forget lust. [i'm in like]

muse and impulse.

"sometimes said its sun-time

let it sunshine on my mind.

healing i need healing

a good feeling i can shine

feel it like you can see it

like you can dream it in your mind

sunny halleluja comming to ya

rain or shine"

-edward sharpe and the magnetic zeros (come in please)

until next time i'm skipping cracks in sidewalks, blindly guessing jelly-belly flavors, and becoming a craigslist success story..

xoxo. -jessica

stranger/danger

today i'm listening to: two door cinema club - what you know

it's my sweet beginning.

sweet, indeed.

....sooooo let's skip that whole part about how i've been MIA for over a month.

for real... i don't even know

okay. i do. but there's nothing good in it

not for me. not for you.

and that is not how you shake a parade

so, because i've been doing no good.

......

(it's time to be up to no good.)

you wear nothing, but you wear it so well...

-dmb

it's time for something big.

but maybe it's just that time of the year...

i hear september will do that to you

"the edge... there is no honest way to explain it because the only people who really know where it is are the ones who have gone over." - Hunter S. Thompson, Hell's Angels

"when you have tasted flight,

you will forever walk the earth with your eyes turned skyward,

for there you have been,

and there you will always long to return."

"basically what we have here is a dreamer.

somebody out of touch with reality.

when she jumped,

she probably throught she could fly."

-Jeffrey Eugenides, The Virgin Suicides

“Always be on the lookout for the presence of wonder.”

—E.B. White, Charlotte’s Web

"Here sitting on the world, she thought,

for she could not shake herself free

from the sense that everything this morning was happening for the

first time,

perhaps for the last time,

as a traveller, even though he is half asleep, knows,

looking out of the train window, that he must look now,

for he will never see that town, or that mule-cart,

or that woman at work in the fields, again."

— Virginia Woolf, To the Lighthouse

amen

"When so many are lonely as seem to be lonely,

it would be inexcusably selfish to be lonely alone."

— Tennessee Williams, Camino Real

okay, a better post some other day

it is time for me to fly, fly, fly away from here.

i need some trouble in my life

i think NEW YORK is just the place...

xoxo. -jess