make it sing

today i am listening to: warpaint - undertow

"your brown eyes are my blue skies"

hey there, cupcake.

thought i'd shift a blog into the abyss

just because i wanna...

and because infinity doesn't keep track

of all the things you do

(only you do, so lighten up)

life is constantly changing and developing.

this hurtling train/nose-diving plane/speeding car

i've been riding for the past six months

DOESN'T SEEM TO BE SLOWING DOWN.

(occupational and/or health hazard, i presume.)

so

instead of waiting for the calm,

i've decided to regroup, reevaluate

and TRY TO MAKE TIME FOR MYSELF.

i guess

i thought the process of becoming an adult would take

a few years

but maybe life's not about becoming an adult.

perhaps we should all focus less

on WHAT or WHO we're becoming

and instead, just focus on the becoming

(limitless)

and make it beautiful.

fuck it,

MAKE IT SING.

so little of what could happen, does happen.

-dali

sometimes it's important to remember what a tiny speck you are.

sepia-toned loving

i can't seem to shake my mind of something.

i'm completely consumed.

so how do i change my mind about it?

how do i believe in my own [lies]?

power of persuasion?

not so good.

(it's impossible. with a side of unbearable.)

impossibly unbearable, perhaps?

"it was a dream," said john quietly. "Everybody's youth is a dream,

a form of chemical madness."

"how pleasant then to be insane!"

-f. scott fitzgerald. "the diamond as big as the ritz"

i'm off to shimmy, shake, and glow around the edges.

there is something

in every one of you

that waits and listens

for the sound of the genuine in yourself

it is the only true guide you will ever have

and if you cannot hear it,

you will

all your life

spend your days on the ends of strings

that somebody else pulls.

-howard thurman

xoxo. -jess

rebel song

today i'm listening to: tame impala - half full glass of wine

you leave me no choice but to plot my revenge...

"the sun may rise in the east but at least it settles in a finer location"-RedHotChiliPeppers

i turn the music up

i got my records on

from underneath the rubble

sing a rebel song

don't want to see another

generation drop

i'd rather be a comma

than a full stop

-coldplay, every teardrop is a waterfall

"the greatest danger for most of us

is not that our aim is too high and we miss it,

but that it is too low and we reach it." - michelangelo

among other things,

you'll find that you're not the

first person who was ever

confused and frightened

and even sickened by human behavior.

you're by no means alone on that score,

you'll be excited and stimulated to know.

many, many men have been just as troubled

morally and spiritually

as you are right now.

happily, some of them kept records

of their troubles.

you'll learn from them-

if you want to.

just as someday,

if you have something to offer,

someone will learn something from you.

it's a

beautiful

reciprocal

arrangement.

and it isn't education.

it's history. it's poetry.

-J.D. Salinger, Catcher in the Rye

i dont' think you're ready for this jelly

"I feel too much. that's what's going on."

"do you think one can feel too much? or just feel in the wrong ways?

"my insides don't match up with my outsides."

"do anyone's insides and outsides match up?"

"i dont' know. i'm only me."

"maybe that's what a person's personality is: the difference between the inside and outside."

"but it's worse for me."

"i wonder if everyone things it's worse for him."

"probably. but it really is worse for me."

-jonathan safran foer - extremely loud and incredibly close

i seek help from my friend called the radio

"life i love you, all is groovy" - paul simon

"she generally gave herself very good advice,(though she very seldom followed it)."

- lewis carroll - alice's adventures in wonderland

xoxo. - jess

built to fly

today I'm listening to: regina spektor - hotel song

come into my world

i've got to show, show, show you

come into my bed

i've got to know, know, know you

summer sunshine was fashionably late this year

i guess we can all make an entrance

because boy oh boy it's H.O.T. HOT

speaking of hot.....

mmm mmm good

"being a woman might be tough,

but being tough is sexy as hell." - mary kate olsen

"i cry out 'love keep your arms around me,"

i am a bird that's in need of grounding,

but i'm built to fly away,

i never learned to stay. - death cab for cutie

speaking of death cab.... the new codes and keys CD is delicious.

(though i wouldn't expect anything less)

not to mention the last track is total happiness to a tune

melting of cute yet?

"i don't say we all ought to misbehave, but we ought to look as if we could." - orson welles.

"did you ever,

in that wonderland wilderness of adolescence ever,

quite unexpectedly, see something -

a dusk sky, a wild bird, a landscape, so exquisite

terror touched you at the bone?

and are you afraid, terribly afraid

that the smallest movement,

a leaf, say, turning in the wind,

will shatter it all?

that is, i think, the way love is,

or should be:

one lives in beautiful terror."

-truman capote - too brief a treat: the letters of truman capote

"t'ain't no sin to take off your skin, and dance around in your bones" - tom waits

xoxo. - jess